Today I'm feeling a little bit on the tired side; like I just didn't get a full night's sleep, although I know I got at least 7 hours. Since fasting has the ups and downs as your body goes through processes of highs and releasing toxins, maybe today my body is trying to release more of the crap I've personally built up in it over the years.
But, on the brighter side, I am so excited that today IS day 7! Almost one full week behind me, and I'm crazily looking forward to the weeks to come. I feel as if this week has been about rediscovering the process of fasting, the do's and don'ts, and what's good for me and what isn't. It's almost as if it was my 'ramp up' to what's really coming. I'm even thinking about extending the fast, but that decision will come as my 21 days draws closer to its end.
This morning at church, I was sitting and reading my Bible in the lobby area [because Teighlor had to be there early for her shift]. I was reading in Isaiah 42 and came across this verse:
"I will take You by the hand and will keep You."
God spoke this to Jesus, although this is a prophetic chapter about Jesus' time to come, but its sweetness just reverberated in my soul. I think of Jesus as strong and capable and the truest leader there ever was. Yet God, His Father, was demonstrating through this one sentence that even Jesus, OUR Savior, would need to be lead by the Father and would be kept by the Father.
That is a humbling thing to think about considering I'm reading about the man who endured the cross by choice. But it brings a sweet smile to my heart because I know that my Father also says this exact thing to me...and then waits for me to take His hand.
Being kept. I don't fully know what that means, but my spirit just rests at the sound of it. Hmmm...this is something I want to explore.
ReplyDeleteYour dedication to this fast is AMAZING to me!! :)
I had a godly *ouch* moment this morning that I wanted to share with you. Read this: “There are also women in the Bible who had outward beauty, but inwardly they were self-willed and pitiful. Rachel, for example. Her inner beauty did not match that of her outward. Partly because of her culture and partly because of her heart, her whole identity was wrapped up in having children, and when she couldn’t, she not only became envious and bitter, but deceitful and completely unfulfilled. (Gen. 30:1) Rachel was one of self-rule. This led to egotism and seriously multiplied her personal problems!” {Alyssa Ann}
ReplyDeleteThis is me.
(Minus the outward beauty arrogance.)
What do I do when I realize that???